Hey Bro, It sounds like you have had quite a ride. Sorry to hear about your poor luck. I'm no stranger to being limited by an injury. It sounds like what you have experienced has been more intense than what I'm talking about, but my point is, I can relate. It's very frustating. I have a few ideas that will hopefully make some positive changes in your life. Before I get into talking about gear, lets talk about protein. How well steroids work will be limited by your diet. I'd suggest you try to eat an anti inflament based diet, staying away from red meats. Things like white fish, turkey, omega 3 eggs and chicken will be ideal. You should also invest in a high quality whey isolate. Learning to eat big is a challenge, but with time, I am certain you can eat larger portions of protein on a regular basis. Focus on eating 3 protein based meals a day and 2 shakes(25-35g protein each). I'd like to see you work towards getting at least 200g of protein a day. See how that works for you over several months and if you are doing well with it, add more. Keep your carbs clean, like oats, sweet potatos, brown rice and quina. Also focus on green veggie and use a sugar free fiber supp once a day. If you aren't using fish oil, that in itself may make a difference. It is a great anti inflamant. When my joints are hurting in contest prep, I can feel the difference within a few days of having upped my fish oil intake. 4-5g a day. If you have a hard time with the caps, they make liquid fish oil. That might sound gross, but there are some lemon flavor fish oils that taste just fine. Ok, you may understand some of those things, but it's important that I address nutrition, so you can get the most out of your therapy.
Lets start with GH. For your purposes, 2-3iu, taken every, day would be enough to help with repair of soft tissue. I would use the highest quality GH you can afford. Naps carries Hyge, which is one of the best (if not the best) on the market, outside of pharm grade. Even then, I would say its close. The effect will be slow and consistent, over months. I would plan to run it for as long as you can. It isn't like steroids, where it needs to be cycled off. At the least, I would shoot for 6 months. If you can go for a year, or longer, that is the route I would go. I would start with 2iu, takem IM with an insulin pin, first thing in the morning. If cost is an issue, you can take it 5 days on, 2 off, or 6 days on, 1 day off. I do want to warn you though, although GH will help to heal soft tissue, it can also cause joint and tendon pain. Over time, this goes away, but it can be unpleasant. If you find that this is a problem, back the dose down a little and see if it subsides. Then move back up, as you can tolerate it, At 2-3 iu, this shouldn't be a huge concern, but I do want to mention it because it is possible. I get more issues like this when I use cheaper blue tops. Its kind of an arthritic feeling, that I get in my knees, elbows and wrists.
With steroids, there are a couple of things to consider. Test actually has a negative effect on collagen. It can make soft tissue weaker over time, but if you are going to run anabolics over a longer period, it's going to keep your body functioning, like a normal male. Without it, you can suffer the effects of low test over a longer cycle, due to the other steroids shutting you down but not functioning the same for your sex hormone needs. ED, low sex drive, depression are a few of the effects you want to avoid. You can keep the dose of test low, just an HRT dose and it will help to add muscle mass. I'd combine it with a little deca, which will dramatically increase collagen production. 300mg will be plenty. During this time, I would also suggest you use HCG at 250iu 2x wk, to keep you from getting shut down. When the cycle is complete, you will want to run PCT. 2 wks after your last shot, begin nolva at 40mg for one wk and then 2 more wks of 20mg ED. After your last shot of gear, continue to run HCG up to 3 days before PCT begins
1-16 TEST CYP 250-300MG
ADEX .1/2MG 1-2X
WK 1-14 DECA 250MG
wk 18
NOLVA 40MG ED
wk 19-20
NOLVA 20MG ED
As for brands, I personally use human grade or Geneza pharm. Both are top notch. For Growth, Hyge's are best.