Hi, I'm writing again one last time because I'm in need of your expert opinion and advice . I'm on 5mg daily of Lexapro for anxiety and post traumatic stress , and 0.5mg~1mg of Xanax nightly for insomnia related to the ptsd . If shit really hits the fan I'm allowed to take 1mg of klonopin , but that's rare . My doctor and I are hoping the lexapro will eventually kick in a few weeks and control the ptsd anxiety to the point where I won't need benzodiazepines anymore for sleep . I'm 5'11 and 240lbs and 25% bf and really, really, hate myself and would love to run a test/deca recomp cycle and get in shape asap for summer . If I'm taking benzodiazepines for sleep nightly am I doomed from gaining more muscle mass and leaning out at a reasonable rate on cycle because I'm on those tranquilizers ? I've heard the sleep they produce isn't natural (and isn't sleep the only time your muscles grow) and you've alluded in previous posts that those drugs have a negative impact on physiques and kill progress in the gym . Thank you for your help in advance and I wish you well this summer - Brandon M.